Hello hello,
Well, I know that is has been a very long while since I have posted....I don't even know if I can remember all of the things that happened enought o post them....

Ok, so the last thing that I wrote about was Easter-ish time... and I can't think of anything huge to talk about that happened after that... so I am going to skip ahead.
Towards the end of June I was rehearsing The first act of Cat on a Hot Tin Roof to be performed at work for my Volunteer party. Jessica, Jennifer, and Matt were great. Jake and I spent a couple weekends in Portland looking around at apartments. We went and saw a play at my school called the Blue Room that was pretty good. Jake thought I just wanted to see it because of all of the nudity, but I honestly had no idea that there was any in the first place. So he gave me a hard time about that. But I was really glad that we did go to the play because it gave me a chance to see the quality of work that the conservatory produces. I thought that the play was feel done even though I thought that the writing was something to be desired. Just the way that things were worded made them sound fake... but oh well. The weekend that Andrew came with us to look at apartments we found the ones that we wanted. We ended up with apartments in Tigard, right across the hall from each other.
So the next couple weeks were taken up by packing.. We moved all of our stuff in the middle of July and the boys stayed there as I went back to Pendleton to finish out the month at Work. It took them forever to find somebody to replace me at work so i had to stick around to train my replacement and get everything ready for her.
Finally I moved over to Portland at the end of July. Since then it has just been looking for jobs, trying to figure out everything to do with school and hanging out with Jake. Jake sold his car to Andrew so that he had a way to get to work and he bought a 1990 Mercedes for him. It has it's quirks but it is a pretty good car. It has lots of character. We named it Taschen. That means Pockets in german.
Jake got a job at Starbucks and I am working at the Halloween store in the mall. It was lots of fun setting up the store and we are finally open for customers.
Jake and I had our 1 year anniversary on August 23, we got to send the whole weekend together. We went downtown to the Saturday market and on the way back we went to the zoo. We didn't get to see too many animals sadly, but it was still so much fun to send the time together.
About a week ago Jake and I went out and played pool woth Nicole Murphy and her boyfriend Josh. That was lots of fun.
And then today was the day that Beatles Rock Band finally came out. We spent the morning playing it and I am sure many more to come will be spent doing the same thing. I am really excited to get back in to the Beatles again. I missed them.
Well, I can't really think of anything else to talk about and I need to start getting ready for work...
I will try not to be gone so long next time.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello, hello,

The We!Beatles are back! In spirit anyway... I just finished writing my catch-up letter and plan on mailing it out tomorrow once I put some pictures in it tonight.
Thursday, Jake and Andrew and I went to a Taiko concert at the college. it was really neat. We bought a couple cds and plan to try to see them again once we get to Portland.
Saturday I went up to La Grande to see Who's Afraid of Virginia Wolfe. It was very good. Then Jaffy, Cassy and I went to a concert and a party at Hanah's house. It was fun. It was nice to hang out with a few of my LG friends and Jeffy again. Jeffy totally doesn't count as an LG friend, even though he lives in La Grande. He will always be a Pendletonian to me.
I feel like there was something else that I was going to talk about but I can't think of it at the moment....so bye.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hey all,
Ok, so I know it has been a while, sorry for keeping you in the dark.
The surgery went well I guess. I was fine after a couple days...just sore and swollen. My headaches seem to be better, but not gone. I am hoping that that is just from my nose still healing.
Easter was nice. Jake and Andrew and I all went to bruch with mmy mom as usual for Easter. Then Jake and I took a nap before going over to give Dakota her Eater basket. It was really nice to get to see her. I just wish that Jake could have had more time with her...Then Jake had to go to work, so I played rock band with Andrew for a bit, ate dinner, went out to the casino for Jake's lunch, and now here I am messing around on the computer.
It has just been the day for random mesasages....I have talked to a handful of people today that I haven't talked to in monthes....strange.
I finished the Twilight series a few days ago. It was really good and I really hope that she continues writing with a spin off series or something. I would totally read it.
Ok, I am too distracted by letter writing to continue updating this, so i am going to go.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hey,
It was been a long week....Jake's Dad was in town for the last week and a half or so, so we spent some time with him, going to dinner and playing pool and going over to Melssa's to see everybody. It was a really fun week but very tiring. I feel like I haven't slept in a while.
In my spare time (that I haven't had much of) I have been reading the Twilight series. I am on the third book right now...I really like the books, I highly recomend them.
My surgery is scheduled for the first, not really looking forward to that. I am taking 2 days off of work so that I can get the surgery done and have a day to recover. I hope that will be enough. I am also hoping that this does the trick and actually gets rid of my headaches. I am really tired of those. And I hope that my nose ring will go back in after the surgery, because I have to take it out and it has only been pierced for 2 months....
I may be in the live Underground tour thing...I talked to the lady in charge of it today, she said that she will be contacting me later about costuming and such. I am excited. I tried doing it last year but it was on the same day as the appraisal fair here at work and I couldn't get out of that. But this year we aren't doing the appraisal fair, so that takes care of that problem.
I talked to my cousin tammy not that long ago about maybe renting out her house when we move down to Portland, I am hoping that that works out. That would be really nice to live in a nice house and not have to pay tons of money for a crappy apartment...
We will be making a trip down to Portland on the weekend of April 26th so we can hopefully figure out some more details then. Murphy is having her baby shower that weekend so I am going so that I can go to that and the boys want to go look around so it seemed like a good plan.
Well, I should probably get going, there is a guy trying to sell me magments so I need to go listen to his sales pitch.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hey!
So get this! You can now receive a Masters Degree in the Beatles!

Beatles degree launched

(Tuesday March 03, 2009 06:01 PM)
Students are to be given the chance to study a Master of Arts degree in The Beatles at a university in Liverpool.
The first-ever qualification of its kind has been announced on the website of the city's Hope University.
"The Beatles, Popular Music & Society" consists of four 12-week taught modules and a dissertation, confirmed Mike Brocken.
The institution's senior lecturer in popular music said it was about time such serious academy was introduced on The Fab Four.
"Forty years on from their break-up, now is the right time and Liverpool is the right place to study The Beatles", he explained.
"This MA is expected to attract a great deal of attention, not just locally but nationally and we have already had enquiries from abroad, particularly the United States."

How crazy is that? I bet that is the coolest, albeit the most useless, degree to ever be offered. I want one! But what do you do with a masters degree in the Beatles, besides just being the coolest person ever?
So I had my follow up with Dr Wigley today. He wants me to get an MRI because the C T scan is showing nothing wrong with my sinuses so it is still just the deviated septum that we think is causing the headaches. So I have to get a MRI on Monday and then I get to schedule a septoplasty ( I think that is how it is spelled...) so that I can have surgery done on my face to get rid of the deviated septum thing. So not looking forward to that even though it sounds like it shouldn't be that bad. But I will have to take my nose ring out. I wonder if it will stay open for an hour or so...
Well, that's all I can think of to talk about at the moment. I really need to get to work, I haven't been much yet today because of that doctor's appointment.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello hello,
Two posts in a week, wow.
So I went to the doctor yesterday. He told me that I have a deviated septum...that's in my nose by the way. From what he said it sounds like the inside of my nose isn't shaped right and there is a "spur" pushing on my sinuses and that is what is causing my headaches. I don't think we really figured out what is with the whole virtigo thing but if I can get rid of the headaches I will be a very happy person. I have a sinus C T scheduled for Monday to make sure that there is nothing else wrong with my sinuses and then I will have a minor surgery done to fix the inside of my nose to get rid of the headaches. Yay! Kinda...I hate scan things and I am not very excited to have surgery done on my face but I want the headaches gone and I want it done before the move to Portland.
I can't remember if I said this before or not, but I got my nose re-pierced. It was my birthday present from Jake. :) But now that I have metal in my face again, I have to go in and have the creepy guy at Wicked Kitty (that's the new name of Practical Magic btw) change out my nose ring for a plastic retainer so that I can have that stupid head scan done. I really hope the machine is smaller then the one that they use for MRIs. I really hated that thing. I hope that Jake can come with me to the scan thing...I want somebody there to hold my hand. My dad was there when I got my MRI and I cried through the whole thing because it freaked me out. I am way to clastrophobic for that shit...
Well, it is lunch time and I want to go home and see Jake so I am going to go.
Peace and Love,
Macca

HEY!
I know it has been forever, but I really don't have much time so I will try to make this quick but also informative.
I got in to the Portland Actors Conservatory! Yeah, way excited. So Jake and I will be moving to Portland sometime this summer.
Jake and I are doing very well, he makes me very happy. Our 6 month anniversary (if you can call it that seeing as how its not a year thing, but you get the idea) is this Monday. :)
Jake has a really fucked up work schedule now so I don't get to see him as much anymore, it is very sad. Hopefully that will get fixed, and some time soon.
My stupid dizziness and headache thing is back. I have a appointment with the ear/nose/ throat doctor on Thursday so hopefully he will be able to tell me what is wrong with my head.
I got to see Velgar yesterday for the first time since like November. I really miss my dog...I hope that I can take him to Portland with me.
Ok, that is all that I can think of at the moment...I should be going, I will try to update a little more often.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello hello,
Well,I got my phone finally. It took like two weeks and bunch of Jake talking on the phone with the Qwest people but we both finally got our new phones. We ended up getting them of of ebay...
Ebay is an amazing thing for those of you that don't already know this. An amazing thing.
There is like a foot of snow on the ground here. I am really not happy about this...I hate the snow. I like snow when I can drive up to the mountains, play in the snow and then drive back home but not when it is on the ground in town. I drive a fucking sports car, it's not fun. My chains went flying off my car this morning...again I say not fun.
The snow has led to some fun indoor activies however. Jake and I decorated our Christmas tree last weekend. The tree is huge, it looked so much smaller in the woods. After cutting it down a bunch it finally fit in the house. It has lights that change between white and multi-colored and the bulbs are black, silver, and gold. The best part is the Mountain Dew bottle that we used on the top instead of a star or an angel. We are going to try to make a Mountain Dew tree for next year, but that really depends on how many Mountain Dew cans we can acquire between now and then. Also we baked gingerbread cookies and had a flour fight in the kitchen. The cookies didn't turn out as good as I had hoped but I had fun making them so it's ok. We also watched (rewatched for Jake) the sadly short season of Firefly and the Serenity movie. They were very good, I highly recommend them.
I am really angery at the Oldies Station right now. It has changed from 60s and 70s to 70s and 80s....I am not happy. I miss the 60s. That is why I listen to the Oldies station.
I got new contacts and teh perscription is too strong. They give me a headache and make me dizzy...but what else is new? I probably should go back to the doctor...
Well, that is all that I can thing of at the moment, though I am sure that I am missing something. I will think about it and get back to you.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hey there,
Ok, so it has been like forever since I posted last...so let me try to catch up.
Um... I officially moved in with Jake finally. :) I have all of my stuff in the apartment but it is still an unorganized mess. I will get to it soon...
Andrew moved in to an apartment across the parking lot from me, Jake and Willie. I just hope that he doesn't let the apartment get as trashed as the duplex was. They had to make an exception for him because of how big Rusty is...
I don't have my phone any more. I just gave the account to Kyle. So now when you call my phone number Kyle's girlfriend Cassie answers. I really don't like that I don't get to keep my phone number...I have had that number as long as I have had a cell phone.
Jake and I are getting new phones on his account though and I am really excited to get them. I just wish that they would hurry up. I really feel lost with out a phone and I hate having to borrow somebody else's phone all the time. I am too independant of a person to not have my own phone.
Um...Thanksgiving was at my mom's house this year. Jake got to come with, that made me happy.
Other then that, we have been staying home a lot. It's too darn cold out. We are going out to play pool tonight, it's exciting. I miss pool. I bet I suck really bad right now.
I really don't know what else to talk about right now. It's been like a month since I posted last and I am having trouble thinking at the moment...
Oh yeah! I had the most random sinus infection in the world. The weekend that I went to Portland I came back with a pretty bad cold that I apparently didn't get over because 3 weeks later i went to the doctor because I had bad headaches and was really dizzy and he said I had a sinus infection. I finished the antibiotics and my headaches aren't quite as bad or frequent but I am still getting really dizzy about twice a week. Dr. Szumski gave me pills that are supposed to help witht he dizziness but they make me so drowzy that I fall asleep every time I take them so I dont know how well they work. Oh well...
Well, that is about all I can think about at the moment...I will try to post more often so that my posts are a bit more interesting.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello hello,
So I am pretty excited that Obama won the election. Everybody pretty much knew that is was going to happen and I don't really have the right to be excited seeing as how I didn't vote, but still, I am pretty excited. I really think that Obama can change things and I am excited for that.
I would recomend reading Obama's speech from last night....

http://joeduck.com/2008/11/04/barack-obama-victory-speech-transcript-us-president-elect-speech-november-4th-2008/

"The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there.
I promise you, we as a people will get there.
There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won’t agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can’t solve every problem.
But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And, above all, I will ask you to join in the work of remaking this nation, the only way it’s been done in America for 221 years — block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand."
Some body is finally stepping up to try and change the world...
Now you have to listen to this conversation that Andrew and I had.
A- Did you hear who won last night?
N- Yeah, it's pretty awesome.
A- So, that means we have Biden for President.
N- Wait, you mean vice President....?
A- No, the way I see it, it was a Vice Presidential race and not a Presidential one. If we got McCain he was going to drop dead and if we got Obama some Neo-Nazi was going to take a shot at him. So it was really between a woman or another old white guy...
My brother's political views are funny.
I am SOOOO tired of being cold. I HATE being cold. And it is only the first week of November....I still have like 6 mothes before it even starts to get back to the tempuratures that I like.
Well, I have to go, talk to you later,
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello,
Halloween was fun. Jake and I carved a pumpkin and had a few trick-or-treaters over. There are pictures up on my myspace. My dad brought my little brother over to Jake's so that we could see max's costume. He was Jango Fett. I have the coolest little brother.
Jake an I went to see The Haunting at Hill House on Sunday. The play it's self was pretty good, but that lead actress was crap. I realize that I may be a bit bias because that was the part that I auditioned for, but Jake said the same thing. She was horrible. There was no acting at all. She is supposed to be scared throughout the play and I didn't believe her for even a second. It was like she just memorized her lines and looked around wide eyed. It was bad. The rest of the cast was wonderful though. I loved Shannon's character.
If anybody knows of a two bedroom house/apartment for rent in Pendleton that allows big dogs, let me know. We are officially moving out of the duplex. The land lords said that Andrew needed to get rid of Rusty so we are going to move out and find someplace else. I was already planning to move out and move to Jake's and Andrew's friend Jeff was going to move in...so now Jake and I are helping them look for a place to live. I hate moving.
Well, I guess I should go. I will talk to you later,
Peace and Love,
Macca

Just something for you to think about on this Halloween day. It's a very interesting read. It's on why people believe in paranormal stuff...an explaination of how the brain explains the unexplainable. It's pretty neat.

http://www.newsweek.com/id/165678/page/1

And here is a link to the Kanisza Triangle they talk about on page 2.

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/5/55/Kanizsa_triangle.svg/300px-Kanizsa_triangle.svg.png

Enjoy!
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello hello!
Happy Halloween to all!
I hope you have great plans for tonight and that you have a great night.
I am excited! I love Halloween. I dressed up as cat for work today. I am wearing normal nice work clothes but they are all dark colors and I am wearing cat ears and some cute cat make up. It looks really cute I think. I know that I am going to be the only person in here today that is dressed up but that is ok. I love Halloween too much to miss out on dressing up. I keep messing up my make up though...it is really annoying.
Well, I should probaly go but I will post again tomorrow to let you know how tonight goes. I am hoping to read some great stories tomorrow as well.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Finally, some information on the Beatles video game!

Harmonix Music Systems, the Cambridge company that created Rock Band, will be part of a group developing a new interactive music video game based on the music of the Beatles, a legendary rock group of the 1960s.
The new game, which is expected to be available in time for the 2009 holiday shopping season, will cover the entire career of the Beatles "end-to-end," but not music that was made by individual members of the group when they pursued solo careers, Harmonix vice president Greg LoPiccolo said during a phone interview.
The Beatles disbanded around 1970.
LoPiccolo said that Harmonix has been working on the deal for 17 months.
Until now, the Beatles have resisted digital licensing of their music.
The group looking to publish a Beatles music video game includes Apple Corps Ltd. and MTV Games, a part of Viacom's MTV Networks, EMI Music said in a press release.
The press release included a statement from Sir Paul McCartney, who said: “The project is a fun idea which broadens the appeal of the Beatles and their music. I like people having the opportunity to get to know the music from the inside out.”
The press release also said: "The game will be an unprecedented, experiential progression through and celebration of the music and artistry of the Beatles. The game was creatively conceived with input from Sir Paul McCartney and Ringo Starr, along with Yoko Ono Lennon and Olivia Harrison, and enjoys their full blessing."
LoPiccolo, the Harmonix vice president, added that while the Beatles game will not be branded as a Rock Band game, it will be similar to Rock Band in some respects; it will also have new features specifically developed for the Beatles' music.

I am so excited!

Peace and Love,
Macca

Hey,
Wow, so it has been quite a while since I lasted posted...I've been kinda busy, and then too lazy to post the rest of the time.
ok, lets see here....last I posted was when I donated blood like 2 weeks ago. I still have a little bit of a bruise but for the most part it has finally gone away.
Kyle came back from Texas that week...
I got all of the pieces together that I needed to turn in my application to the actors conservatory so I took a trip to Portland that weekend.
That was pretty much a theatre weekend. Friday I went up to La Grande to pick up my final recommendation that I needed from Ken Bush and watched Boy's Life. It was really good and had an excellent use of film in between the scenes, it was really neat.
Then on Saturday, Kyle and I left for Portland and went to the Rocky Horror Picture Show at the Clinton Street Theatre. It was really neat to see the actors acting along with the movie and the prop stuff was really fun, but there were so many people that go every showing that have lines that they shout at the movie that it was really hard to hear. But that is the only thing that I can complain about. I have wanted to go see RHPS live for so long that it was great just to stand outside and see all of the people that were dressed up in corsets and heels.
Sunday we spent most of the day riding the max and going to the malls and shops and things. Then that evening we watched Eurydice at the Actors Reportory Theatre. It was amazing! it was so nice to see a show that was actually funded by more then a school...it was amazing the different props they had and the costumes were extensive. The play is a recently written Greek style play that tells the story of Orpheus and Eurydice from Eurydice's POV. The parts when they were in the Underworld almost had a Tim Burton feel to them...it was really neat.
Then on Monday I went and turned in my application to the Portland Actors Conservatory and had a meeting with the director. Now I just have to wait until like March to see if I made it in or not.
Then, all of that next week (that being last week) I was sick. I think it was the fact that we were walking around in the rain alot and of course I wasn't wearing very warm shoes...
Jake and I have been watching Deathnote...we are all caught up now in what has been released in English except for the one that just came out on Tuesday. So me, Jake, and Andrew are all going to go to Tri-Cities on Sunday to pick it up. I am excited!
My little brother turned 4 on the 26th...it's amazing how time flies.
Now I am really looking forward to Halloween. :)
Ok, well... I am sure that I could think of more to talk about but I think that this post is long enough. I should probably go find something productive to do.
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello,
So I donated blood yesterday, and the guy nicked the wall of my vein with the needle. It hurts really bad. It started bleeding out the second he put the needle in, which usually doesn't happen and it was stinging really bad. After a while he looked at the bag and notices that it wasn't going very fast so he moved the needle, that hurt even worse. When I was finally done...after like 20 minutes...he took the needle out and it looked like there was a gum ball under my skin it was swelling so badly...He wrapped it up and put ice on it but it still really hurts. It's all blue and purple today...
I am starting to get pretty excited about applying to that school. I just need to get my recommendations from Craig and Ken and then I can turn it in. Fun stuff!
I am really sleepy, and my arm hurts, so I am going to go and try to find something to wake me up. Talk to you all later,
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello,
I found a very angry making article...

http://uk.news.yahoo.com/afp/20081009/ten-jagger-and-lennon-wanted-money-not-r-a56114e.html

That's a whole article if you choose to read it, but the part that pisses me off the most is the fact that he says that "Pop culture icons John Lennon and Mick Jagger were clever capitalists who cashed in on the mood of the 1960s, not spokesmen for a generation seeking revolution." This man has obviously never heard a Beatles song in his life if he honestly thinks that! Take just a handfull of John's songs from the late 60's and on until his death and you will see that the man only wanted peace and love. Revolution #1, All You Need Is Love, Imagine, Happy Xmas (War Is Over), Give Peace a Chance....the list goes on and on. John Lennon was an amazing man who did countless things in the name of peace. He held bed-ins and attended countless peace rallies. In 2002, respondents to a BBC poll on the 100 Greatest Britons voted John as number 8. So appearently there are a lot of people that share my opinion. This guy needs to think of a different person to pick on...
P.S. happy Birthday John.
So, its fricking freezing here. Ok, really its like 45-50 degrees, but that is still pretty darn cold. I am so not looking forward to having to go out and defrost my windows in the morning or having to wear sweats all the time. I hate being cold.
I really wish that my packet from the Actors conservatory would get here....I really want to get that turned in.
Well, I have stuff I really should be doing...talk to you all later,
Peace and Love,
Macca

I feel as though a weight has been lifted. We have decided to not worry so much about what will happen next and focus on the now...now we can be happy.
I really don't understand why I am so confused on the subject, but now I will have the time to figure it all out on my own time. I think that is what I needed in the first place. Just some time to think it all through...
But I also don't want to get ahead of my self...there is still alot to figure out before the moving stage. Like how I am going to pay for this school, if I even make it in...
Well, I think that is enough vague rambling for now, I should get some work done.
Peace and Love,
Macca

There is just too much drama in my life. I want peace.
I want to go to school, I want to make more friends, and I want to be able to do what ever I want when I want. I don’t want to have to answer to anybody…
I am tired of causing drama with every action that I take. I don't mean to... but everything I do upsets somebody in some way. I am getting really tired of hurting people...
Peace and Love,
Macca

Hello everybody,
I think that I found a school in Portland that I want to go to. I have finally come to the conclusion that if I really want to go through with this acting thing I need to get in some hard core training if I am going to get anywhere. I am not good enough now to do what I want to do but I think that I could be if I had the training. And I don't think that a university will give me the training that I need. So I found a school in Portland called the Portland Actors Conservatory. It's a two year program that is strictly focused on acting. After the first year you have to audition to make it to the second year and then if you make it to graduation they have talent scouts and directors for stage and film at your graduation performance. They give you plenty of oppertunities to make it...and that is what I need. I figured that if I am serious about trying to make it as a professional actress I need to get the training or pretty much give up before I start. So... I requested the application this morning. If I do make it in, classes have already started for this year so I would have until the first week of September next year to save up money to move and get settled and all that, then figure out how I am going to pay for $8,500 a year.
I so need to get a second job.
I am making enough money now to pay bills and live and al of that, but I am not saving anything. And I still have to pay off Eastern. So I think that I am going to go start looking for another job on Monday, that way I can just start saving whatever money I get from that job. I really really do want out of this town.
Ok, well I guess I will go try to find something to do.
Peace and Love,
Macca